Isn’t it pathetic that people would just hear one side of the story and automatically assume that you’re the bad guy? That it’s your fault? But what they don’t know is how you’re actually hurting, yeah not as much as the other but you’re hurting and you need someone to talk to and everything just seems like it’s falling apart and you just want your friends to be there but they aren’t and it fucking hurts.
It’s sad that the people you expected to be there for you whenever you need them doesn’t even check on you. Even a simple “hey, are you okay?” would be fine but nothing. No efforts or anything but then you find out that they’re there for other people at that exact time and it’s so disappointing to think that whenever they needed you, you’re always there and always checking up on them but when you need them, you feel like you can’t talk to them and not a single text message would come into your inbox.
People will always judge you even without hearing your side of the story first and it sucks but that’s life. People will judge whatever you do, good or bad, for yourself or for other people, anything. Just do whatever you want to do and whatever makes you happier because everyone has something to say either way.
Ako Naman Ngayon
Ikaw nalang, ikaw nalang ang laging nagdedesisyon
at gumagawa ng kung ano-ano na nakaka-apekto
sa buhay kong magulo.
Ikaw nalang, ikaw nalang ang laging pumapasok
sa isipan kong pilit na kinakalimutan ang mga haplos
na tumatak sa bawat parte ng katawan ko–
tumatak at nagiwan ng mga sugat na lagi parin sumasakit,
sumasakit dahil inaasam ko muli, maranasan, maramdaman
at marining ang mga salitang “Ikaw lang mahal ko, ikaw lang ang laman”
“Ikaw lang ang laman ng puso ko"
“Ikaw lang gusto ko makasama habang buhay pa ako”
Pero putangina yan ay noon, ako naman, ako naman ngayon
Ako naman ngayon ang gagawa ng mga bagay-bagay na ikakasaya ko
Ako naman ngayon ang tutupad ng mga pangarap na itinaboy ko para sayo
Isang taon akong naipit sa isang lugar na akala ko ay ikinabubuti ko
ngunit lahat nang yon ay kathang-isip lang pala
at unti-unting sinisira ang aking kinabukasan na puro dahil nalang sayo
dahil sayo, ang buhay ko ay gumulo
Ako ay nalungkot at nasakal sa pagmamahal na ibinigay mo,
pero ako rin naman tong si tanga
na pilit paring tinatanggap at binabalik lahat ng ‘to sa'yo
Putangina, ako naman ngayon pwede ba?!
Ako naman ngayon ang may karapatan na sumaya dahil ako ay nandito na
Wala na kong inaasam pa na ugnay sayo
dahil ako naman ngayon, ang naririto
Ako naman ngayon ang makakasabi na “Masaya na ako”
na ako naman ngayon makakasabi na “Malaya na ako.”
(Co Chiong, I.)
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(Source: fuckeverythingandsociety, via fucktherulesofsociety-deactivat)
